Three Hour Thoughts

12:30p.m. Just off the phone with Javier for the 2nd time this morning. He was kind enough to wake me at 9:30a.m. He has no idea how much I must be into him; proven by my willingness to stay on the phone instead of hanging up. So for the last three hours I've been awake and fishing through my head the many things that aren't in order yet. But before I start to ramble about that....

When I talk on the phone with Javier I seem to do all the talking. I feel instinct kicking in. I don't know yet if he isn't comfortable with me or if this is simply his personality. We're hanging out tomorrow and I hope to have this understood.

Looking back into my youth for answers to the math problems of today. The formulas aren't the same anymore. Math has always appealed to the black & white portion of my brain. In growing, I have sought out understanding the shades in between. This makes the logic less important and often times the emotion more relevant.

Paperwork--to file. Perhaps tonight after work.

Day two of glasses. My eyes are thankful.

I just thought of Jared...."Impulse GO!" "Star Guitar" by Chemical Brothers brought the thought on. I wonder where he is in this world.

Long Beach Pride is today and tomorrow. yippee. I haven't gone in several years and have no plans to go today or tomorrow. Am I getting more conservative or just tired?

Keeping on track... running would be in the picture tonight.

Depending on what shift bid I get, I may have to alter the three classes I'm taking for Summer school.

There is still poetry in my head but I ponder it so much that I think maybe it never comes out. I'm tired of writing shit. Take that how you want.