Memorial Day---Yay

10:38am I wake up to gray skies---the theme for this weekend's weather. I was looking forward to going to the beach today. Other forces had otra plans.

So I just stared at the keyboard for that last 8 minutes. More lost time. My head was playing out a cinema. I do this so often. Sometimes it's the interaction between real people that I know. I'm thinking about what their reactions to situations would be and mine naturally back to them. Sometimes there are completely ficticious characters involved with real people and the mood of the thoughts is much more fantasy than any reality.

My appetite for sex has been returning slowly. As I'm laying in bed I thought just now that it's strange to have sex with someone different. After two years of the same person there's a comfort and a knowledge of likes and dislikes. There are also certain expectations from that knoweldge. You know what turns them on most, the places on their body that are sensitive, the things that they didn't know about and that you found together. And vice versa. They know you. A good sex life fits like a gloove.

I've decided on "peaceful tiger" for the chinese characters for my back. Now how long will it take me to do it?

I spent pretty much all day with Javier and his nieces yesterday. Oh...and Oliver the cat too. I felt some special bond with his younger niece, Erica. I can't explain that any better at the moment. Lynette was a lot of fun as well. So different than my sister of roughly the same age. I also spent some time with Mom & Sarah yesterday.

A person who names their son or daughter after themself? Is this the ultimate in narcissism? Just a lack or originality? Tradition? Yeah, I think it's all about that thing of carrying on something after your death.....progeny. So are gay people truly nature's way of responding to an over-populated planet? Some absolutely perfect molecular precision built into the DNA from the start? We are taught to want so many things and yet other things are pure drives from within.