That space afterwards

I never want to feel not wanted. Is that a double negative? I never want to feel unwanted. I don't want to make someone else feel that way either. Leaving the brunch yesterday I drove up PCH toward Huntington Beach. I parked on Magnolia and stared out toward the water. Air conditioner running. "I can't take this pain anymore." panged within. So I called Randy and let everything in my head out.

I feel better. Well enough to pay bills today. YaY! Dimetapp taking over now... eyes closing.


Troubled By The Way We Came Together
by: Natalie Imbruglia

From hand to hand you bought and sold
Blood is the shield against the weather
Became a stone for fear of being melted
Trouble from the day we came together

When you recover, from yesterdays low
True slave to traction of pleasure
I collect the embers as I watch you grow
You left along the way we came together

As you breathe as you breathe it to life
You will lead, you will lead
As you stray as you star far from home
I will believe I will believe

Flames of love immerse you
Cradle and coerce you
Shadows overrun the place you play
Names of love remind along the way
Seems shallowed by the way we came together

My heart carries on, mmm
But my head knows better
Troubled by the way we came together

As you breathe, as you breathe it to life
You will lead, you will lead
As you stray as you stray far from home
I will believe, I will believe

Cause you are here today, and gone tomorrow
Basking in the fields of never never
You wanted today, mmm but I wanted forever
Troubled by the way we came together
My heart carries on, mmm
But my head knows better
Troubled by the way we came together

As you breathe as you breathe it to life
You will lead, you will lead
As you stray, as you stray far from home
I will believe, I will believe
Cause you are here today
And gone tomorrow