Tempting

11:34p.m. How do I feel? I am just back from walking the Montage Resort with Javier. We were lifeguards. A half moon lit the waves, the sand, our faces. Soft lips. Kindred kisses. I don't know what clicked in me to try now. My vibe? Or have I really been so changed by weeks of introspection that I am allowing myself the liberty of getting to know someone and sharing myself? Sometimes being spontaneous is the key to remaining alive.

But even I have my limits with spontaneity. I didn't want to get sexual with kissing and kept hands from roaming. I laughed when I sensed a difference in intent. It's not that I don't want to have sex...it's that I don't want to have sex. =) I'm tired of sex without meaning and I can't exactly have meaning with someone I just met. I have a feeling and it's a good one and I know one worth developing.

Wow... 3 entries in one day.