Nathan is in town; spent the night here and will be going home today. Last night was just a nice, relaxing night like we used to have from time to time some 8-10 odd years ago in Anaheim. Dinner consisted of Chipotle, mini Butterfingers, Crunch bars & Reeses Peanut Butter cups. (Oh, and water) Being sick the past few days I swallowed down a few Astagalus & a Trader Joe's brand of Echinaea/Goldenseal.
I'm having online conversation with John E. and Lena while I'm typing this. I learn a lot about myself in such conversations with people. I learn how others view me. Sometimes it's surprising and sometimes not. It's interesting to me how the way I communicate with people in this text format varies so much based on the personality of the person and what I know they would and wouldn't understand if I typed it. Some people "get me" more than others. I don't think anyone thus far has "gotten" me completely. I think that kind of understanding usually takes someone with a lot of life experience.
I imagine that finding such a person is joyous from inside out.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Dampening Pedal
"It's a new dawn.... it's a new day... it's a new life for me.... and I'm feeling good."
-Nina Simone - Feeling Good
Not so much. I've managed to collapse my immune system with worry, stress and lack of sleep. Yesterday I was sneezing and today I woke up with a scratchy throat and runny nose. Astragalus, Nyquil and rest are in me now.....well, the rest is slowing typing down anyway.
I feel a strong wind coming from the East. It will blow into town and settle here in the Southland and will leave a wake of change. The morning's water reminds of broken promises to the self and the many mechanisms of wasting time. So I daydream such lovely little scenes and only I can figure out if this is all happening in color or not.
"River running free.... you know how I feel..."
-Nina Simone - Feeling Good
Not so much. I've managed to collapse my immune system with worry, stress and lack of sleep. Yesterday I was sneezing and today I woke up with a scratchy throat and runny nose. Astragalus, Nyquil and rest are in me now.....well, the rest is slowing typing down anyway.
I feel a strong wind coming from the East. It will blow into town and settle here in the Southland and will leave a wake of change. The morning's water reminds of broken promises to the self and the many mechanisms of wasting time. So I daydream such lovely little scenes and only I can figure out if this is all happening in color or not.
"River running free.... you know how I feel..."
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Restless Space Teeth & Murder
With a title like that, it must have been a dream. In the few hours of sleep last night I managed to loose my bottom teeth, have an entire police department looking for me and somehow end up in space to essentially attach a bungie cord to a space ship so that it could drift inside of a nebula and then get sling shotted back. (Apparently the nebula answered questions while you were in it, but it told me I was not ready to know and then the bungie cord tightened and we were on our way out before any more questions could be answered.)
While the po po's were in pursuit on the ground, I was in some house that was protecting me. They knew what I had done but felt that somehow it was justified and that they would be my safe harbor. I get the sense that I was younger than I am in real life and that one of the guys there was my best friend. (No way to confirm that)
In the mirror I noticed that one tooth on the bottom row was very much out of place and when I went to go see if it was loose and pushed on it with my finger, the whole front row of teeth moved up from the pressure I was exerting.
What was the question I asked?
What did I do to be a fugitive?
Why were my teeth misaligned?
I may never know the answers. (Until my next sleep)
While the po po's were in pursuit on the ground, I was in some house that was protecting me. They knew what I had done but felt that somehow it was justified and that they would be my safe harbor. I get the sense that I was younger than I am in real life and that one of the guys there was my best friend. (No way to confirm that)
In the mirror I noticed that one tooth on the bottom row was very much out of place and when I went to go see if it was loose and pushed on it with my finger, the whole front row of teeth moved up from the pressure I was exerting.
What was the question I asked?
What did I do to be a fugitive?
Why were my teeth misaligned?
I may never know the answers. (Until my next sleep)
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
200 Seven
It was January 1st again. This time the year was called 2007. Some of us took our first breaths heavily under the influence of alcohol while dancing in clubs. Others, like myself, found that fires in the living room with friends was just as satisfying.
When the new year begins is when I usually "officially" feel like my new age. It's like the entire month of December is an adjustment with the backdrop of holiday parties and good will wishing. It's a month where people tend to look more beyond themselves than they normally would and that is somehow comforting to me during the transition of chronological growth. Soothing.
But with growth, can sometimes be growing pains. These things tend to spike and subside with me. Thresholds of pain are usually very high, so I'm not one to complain. I both celebrate and cringe at the idea that it is easier to endure each year.
A night with friends at Mary's. I spoke to someone new and look forward to finding out more about this introduction. I also learned that thimbles are kisses and not monopoly game pieces.
:-)
When the new year begins is when I usually "officially" feel like my new age. It's like the entire month of December is an adjustment with the backdrop of holiday parties and good will wishing. It's a month where people tend to look more beyond themselves than they normally would and that is somehow comforting to me during the transition of chronological growth. Soothing.
But with growth, can sometimes be growing pains. These things tend to spike and subside with me. Thresholds of pain are usually very high, so I'm not one to complain. I both celebrate and cringe at the idea that it is easier to endure each year.
A night with friends at Mary's. I spoke to someone new and look forward to finding out more about this introduction. I also learned that thimbles are kisses and not monopoly game pieces.
:-)
