The absence of Tangibles

Today--right now--4:04am, is the first time since not having a car that I feel like I would really like to have one again. I think it's because of my hunger. I would have liked to have gone on my lunch and gotten something really fattening to eat. Hehe.

Instead, I was in the break room and online talking to my roommate, Art, and Lanny. Lanny was talking about how good it was going to feel to come out and see me and I share the same sentiment. I have this movie in my head about picking him up at the airport and grabbing him as he walks through the security area and just kiss him and hold him and be lost in that moment. When I pause right now I can picture visiting Destin, FL and being in a restaurant there with Lanny and his two friends as we drank and ate. There was such life to the place. I remember it was red, or that's the color that sticks out. I remember running on the beach at full speed and it making my soles raw because the beach had little pebbles everywhere.

I think that sometimes I'm in love with the idea of being in love.

There's a dinner tonight. I hope I didn't blow it out of proportion by inviting more people. Originally Sebastian called to invite me along with his friend, Jon and Jon's friend. I invited Mark, Chuck, Art and Matt. (oops, & bobby & joey) Hmm... In any case, I plan on having a good time.