Treatment Day 2

They want me to chronicle in a journal. They don't know how often I write. The second mourning of group was focused on two people mainly. Sitting and listening, I realize how lucky I am or have been. On paper, I feel like a loser by my own standards. The whole idea behind this program is that you have to admit that you have no control over usage---that your poison of choice is more powerful than you. Hog wash. But I can see how some of the people here need to believe that for themselves. Mark W. and I are probably on the same page here. Now it's time for a Hepatitis C video. New fact: Hepatitis simply means an inflammation of the liver.

Yo! Ga! I almost fell asleep. At one moment of the guided meditation, the yoga person said something--->Think of love, breath it in---> and I started to cry.

Emotionally stunted at 16 or 17 because of Ruben. So I know this and it effects all of my interactions so why can't I move past it?

Tears in my eyes again---- when people who aren't that bright use eloquent words to describe their feelings, the realness of it touches me.