Strength to be...

Maybe I just simply am not ready yet.

When I told Sebastian & Chuck a week ago that if you don't want anyone to know about something then you can't tell a single person. I was thinking this during the online separation that occurred between Ryan and I. Our talk last night left me empty. Learning one's intent through deceit may satisfy the search for knowledge, but trying to explain this is completely different. Everything I said was true. Everything I felt was correct. But intent equals content...and hurt and anger came through.

I paid for school. Two classes. Tuesday & Thursday. No books. Great.

instinct.
I hate myself sometimes.
it hurts so often