Handle This

8:01pm
Now what? I have three hours until work is over. I'm finding myself tired at the end of my shifts because I'm actually getting up earlier to get in my overtime. I'm going to the White Party with 'the boys' (Alex, Dan, Danny, Bobby & Joey) Jeff & Joe are going too I believe, as well as their whole entourage. I didn't want to take the cost of the ticket and weekend stay out of my normal budget so I'm doing the OT so that I don't have to really worry about where the money is coming from. But now what? I'd like to go and hang out with Ali tonight because I feel like I've been flaking a lot lately on our plans. Am I up for a drive to The Doom though? haha...

After consulting a soon to be psychologist, I decided to give Randy the picture of his b/f with others along with the IM from Wes. Ultimately, he's a big boy and can do whatever he wants with the information. He can hate me for pointing it out. He can ignore it. He can shrug it off as something he may already know about. He can see me as meddling and not do a thing. In yesterday's entry of "no drama," that act was done out of love here and I'm done.

I had this really funny thought. I've never really met or seen Randy's b/f, Ryan. What if the person I think it is in the picture really isn't him? Hahahahahahahaha... wow, what an ass of myself I'd be making. It wouldn't be the first time. It's the thought that counts, right? :-)

Lanny sent me an e-mail back. He's so afraid of being alone. This hasn't changed over time. Sometimes it's hard for me to decipher between the feelings of love for Shane and the feelings of fear to live alone. It lends for him to find people (like me---and probabaly Shane too) who try and dish him answers to life and have him try and lead the lives that we would lead. That's not fair, maybe. Maybe it's exactly what he wants and needs. I wish that other soul that could compliment his would find him soon.

8:42pm
I'm still waiting for my birth certificate to come from the State. I need the certified copy in order to apply for my passport.

10:15pm
I went AOL mobile. This is how bored I am. I'm pushing through the tedious text messaging in between calls.