In Tense

Past. Present. Imperfect. What tense? Just intense is fine for now. Can't sleep. Thank you Serzone. Body tingles everywhere. Normal since I didn't gradually come back upon 200mg, rather, just dumped it in and thought I'd go to sleep like normal. I laugh at the thought now. When I close my eyes and focus on the music playing, feel my mind letting go, images start to form. Then, more than just form, they flash very rapidly. I can't make out each frame, so my mind kicks back in and tries to manipulate the speed and as I begin to recognize the images I realize that my mind is so engaged that I'm alert and nowhere near sleep. So here's more slow music playing... acoustic even. "Lightning Crashes"

I'm looking forward to going to Seattle. I need to go to the graveyard and have a heart to heart. It sounds morbid, but I don't see it that way. Talking with the dead is as sane as talking to yourself when no one's around. I know I'm not going looking for any type of answers, I'm just going because I want that conversation. I want to feel close to her. Safe. I feel it on some level just typing now. Steady hands. Tactile. The "f" and "j" keys have that raised marker on the keys so that you know where "home row" is. The graveyard is something similar. Home row.