The Old Man Is Snoring

2:22pm
When it fucking rains it pours! Dry spells to flash floods. Restricted phone call from OH-Jeremy (that's Ohio Jeremy). LOL. He missed "talking" to me. This morning I leave the house @ 5:30am to spend several hours in HB before leaving to go to work. (Robbie) Phone calls over the weekend from Peep and Shy Sean.

(added afterthoughts while copying)
Who knew I'd have to identify Sean's.. a year ago there were none really. Shy Sean, Roommate Sean, Gemini Sean, HB Shaun. There's Hollywood Jeff. And where did Tim come from? That took me by surprise. Kellan in Washington, Eddie in Las Vegas and Dominic...oh Dominic. The Sunday boys that come to the house, how I get swept up into the newness of watching their lives begin to blossom and cross paths. Insecurity and curiousity meeting; experience lacking. I sense and see their unspoken words of attraction for each other and the uncomfortable, unknown responses when the feelings are not returned. As I watch all this, I realize that for the first time I have consciously not tried to intimately involve myself as much as I may flirt.

I've decided that that as much as I think each of these people are beautiful and interesting in their own right, I'm just finding reasons to derail myself.