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In resolving what I know is right, there are emotions that act as anchors. I believe people can change, but I'm also wise enough to know that I cannot change them. Perhaps I can be the catalyst for change, but the ultimate decision is not mine. That being the case, I must have have piece of mind.

I've asked Bobby to bring my bed over so that I can put it in the room. I'm going to move the computer back into the main room and put my bed in the corner. Two beds will definitely take up a lot of space, but I'm really not comfortable sleeping on the couch and not "our" bed either.

My structured side wants to follow-up and make sure that he follows through with therapy and show interest in any progress being made. My Super Ego is dicating moral clauses and is resolute in not engaging in any emotional contact at all. I have obvious living situations that make that improbable and that's too cold--even for me. I would like to be a friend without the pretense of our relationship. That's easier said that done because we can't simply "water faucet" our feelings. It will be difficult.

"People....you can never change the way they feel. Better let them do just what they will..." ("Kissing a Fool" by George Michael) The lyrics are familiar to me right now because of everyone's opinion about what is going on. Each of my friends have their personal thoughts and points of view. I value their input, but as always, it is Jeremy who has to live through the decisions that I make. They merely have to watch the life unfold.

This last phone call I got here at work, someone is calling in for the 2nd night in a row because their phone time is one hour ahead when they goto their local Starbucks. People have too much time on their hands.