The Family Spreading

I haven't been able to sleep. Seems like a pretty regular occurrence at least once a week. I was going to get up early today and get into the AHA (American Heart Association) early to get at least seven hours in today then go to my last alcohol class tonight, but realized somewhere in my many thoughts last night that Sarah's text message to me to have good time in Seattle was a reminder that they're leaving. Sunday. Off to Salem, OR. I looked it up on the Verizon Wireless coverage map. Haha.

Even though it's not like I go over to my mom's house all the time now, I do feel a sense of this change that is going to happen. It's different then when I lived in Sacramento. Then, I was 19 and still at odds with her in many ways. Sarah was only six. The brothers were in high school and junior high. I missed being their brother during a time of racing to have my independence and get far away from my childhood. Right now, I have always had the option of jaunting over to mom's house if I wanted to. There's that strand between parent and child that always remains no matter how hold you become. That strand is the part of you that will always feel like a child around them. For me, that's comforting and annoying. (Usually at varying times, but sometimes simultaneously)

So I've decided to hop on a bus and go make a surprise visit this morning. I have hugs and kisses to give.