In front of me I see these paths and the decision to walk each one seems futile and humorous when I believe they all end in the same place. It is said that life is about the journey, not the destination.
When I have roots in a world of people who were driven to strive for more than the "average" person, I feel that drive within me still. Having lived outside of that world for a long time now, I feel that there is an equal level of importance in being content with not stiving to be more. A part of me will always worry about why those that choose to pursue knowledge and skills will look down upon those that do not. Schism.
Sometimes I have the sense that my energies are needed for something greater than what they are currently being used for. Sometimes I'm very grounded by a sense that my energies are distributed and working as they should within a framework that they are needed in. Sometimes I am troubled by a sense that by imposing my own desires, my energies are distracted from being utilized productively. It's when I think that I am going stagnant that someone will say something to me and I realize that interacting with them was worth whatever doubt I felt in myself.
The sphere of friendship that I find in the gamut from Nathan to Cardwell to Mark to Arturo to Edwyn and Rey to Hackett and Ortiz to my roommate Art to Javier is an ever expanding and tightening energy net. Our lives exist on a physical plane together while pulling away and getting closer on emotional and philosophical planes.
If it were simple, might it already be done?
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The daily jazz of my mind, as pure & honest as possible; but know that words are themselves filters of the original thought/idea.
