Quiet Thoughts

I woke up at 2:30am. Napping right before work is *not* the best idea because my body all too naturally drifts back to being asleep during the dark hours... hahahaha... "dark hours" Sounds like something that would be said in a movie with a heavy Catholic theme, some type of demonic possession and/or "evil" that The Church has to stamp out....fade into a council of very gaunt and serious faces where a bishop says, "Make no mistake, these are the dark hours, and we will be judged without mercy." Hmm.... what an imagination. But yeah.. waking up at 2:30am is not a good thing when you don't have a car and you're going to be riding a bike to work for the first time. Walking the distance between work & home is about an hour. Riding the bike was about 20 minutes. Tonight, in my frantic state I made it in about 15 minutes. I bet I could do it in close to 10 if I really had to. (I'd be soaking wet, but I could probably do it)

Paul came over yesterday after his interview at Black Angus. From his description it sounded like the interview was just a formality of the process of being hired. Good for him. He looked very sharp in his interview clothes. Spiffy. (Another word that I seldom use.) We walked around the lake, went to Mervyn's and then ordered pizza at the house while watching "Boy's Life." While he was trying on pants, I decided that I needed to look at shoes. My Imelda Marcos tendancies came out....and three pairs of shoes later, I had two big Mervyn's bags to carry out to Paul's truck.

I was feeling really affectionate when Paul was over. Playful. While walking around the lake I was quacking back at the ducks, throwing little rocks in the water that they thought was food so they would come rushing near. We all act like those ducks sometimes.

I really feel much better lately. I think this change in vehicle situation, making cash flow positive again has lightened a load off my shoudlers. Financial straits have always caused the most stress for me. It triggers my depressive state of being immobile.

I'm drifting now. 6am. 15 minutes until lunchtime and a nap.