Tide pools rising

8:57am
I feel like a Chuck pawn at this moment. In a way it's kind of funny. I'm laughing on th einside. It really is funny. Ha ha ha.

Noon--12:00pm
I had a great time last night. Hung out with Mark and Ian. Went to a SMALL party in Long Beach. I drank red wine and text messaged Josh. Later...INSOMNIA. Met up with Juan there. Four different DJ's, one short & cute played a remix of "Send Me An Angel." The music kept me moving--even when limbs drooped in sweat. So much sweat. Drenched shirts. Shower. Clean. To become dirty again.

White hot chocolate and doggy style. Eros.

Okay. Not great, but fun. Tired. Talked to Juan about Josh. Then I talked to Ian about both of them. I played him Bic Runca. He had never heard her before.

Now the bathroom is available. Shower again.

7:10pm
I re-read the e-mail from Lanny and broke into tears.