fantasy..haha

"The Sounds Of Nature..."

I'm watching Holly for the next couple days. Not really watching, just checking in on and feeding. Animals, like children, have an adept sense of remembering people and how they treat them.

In writing the last few times, I've thought about the concept of a writer's date with his/herself. It's a concept that was proposed to me in a gift that Mark gave me one year. I actually tried doing it a few times, but never really stuck with it. I think the hard part for me is just going out by myself to places, events, areas. It's more difficult now being involved, but sitting here waiting for the cable guy and being alone I'm reminded that I should probably try.

So the cable guy comes....hahahaha. I guess the reality is what I get for having some half-cocked porno fantasy of what the cable guy "might" have looked like. Yeah, we all know that I wouldn't be doing anything anyway, but it doesn't mean that the creation of fantasy doesn't happen anyway. Short, bald, 10 o'clock shadow, heavyset & a thick Middle Eastern accent was definitly not in the script.

Okay, waiting for some more songs to download on Aimster and then off to the bank. I was left word by Randy this morning that Nathan has cancelled on me for hanging out today. I don't know why yet but it's not a good sign that plans are not being followed through. I hope he's using the time for something worthwhile.

I spent last night with Randy C. & Linda. I hadn't been to Randy's in quite some time. Still looks the same. Same comfortable couches, same bushy haired cats, same wine drinking Linda. What happens to us as we're forming to cause us to be so shut off and hard to read? I relate to Randy in this way and in silence I somehow feel close.

Alas, not close enough to fill this gap I have right now. Well...we'll see. I have tennis this evening with D.R. and the rest of the night with Humbee. Tomorrow work, Sunday beach, Monday-Friday training. And where am I?

j.r.me