LoveHeadAche

MY NIGHT'S WORTH OF IM-ING. THIS DAY WAS DRAINING ENOUGH LOSING MY CAR TO THE DEALERSHIP FOR DIAGNOSTICS...SPINNING MY WHEELS LOOKING FOR A NEW JOB...COUNTING OUT CHANGE TO EAT DINNER. I JUST WANTED TO SOME PEACE AND QUIET BEFORE BEDTIME. INSTEAD, I HAVE TEARS...AND A CONVERSATION THAT I CANNOT RUN FROM.

EarthGenre: ((cry))

EarthGenre: <---drinking a Corona

EarthGenre: Okay...no more beer... beer smells like piss. eeww

JJsbeachboy: not now

EarthGenre: sure

JJsbeachboy: oo so your drunk ..and after all this time .. when your drunk you deccide to im me??? so tipical of you .. when it is conveinent for jer.. never mind what everyone else feels or thinks or want .. how shitty of you ... you should be ashamed

EarthGenre: I'm not drunk...I've had 1 1/2 beers.

EarthGenre: I never see you on here. So I never have the opportunity to IM you.

EarthGenre: Nevermind....I can't say anything that's right to you anyway.... we always twists each others words around.

JJsbeachboy: save you opp for another fool,

JJsbeachboy: i cant deal............. with you or this life for that matter

EarthGenre: I can't either.....I'm at the bottom right now.

JJsbeachboy: just get over me

EarthGenre: Do you have a magic potion or something?

JJsbeachboy: you got your self there the day you left me

JJsbeachboy: very funny

EarthGenre: the day you left me

JJsbeachboy: why or you men all the same

JJsbeachboy: i never left you.

EarthGenre: Yes... you did. Read

JJsbeachboy: you ended it..like always........i took a breather.. so i wouldnt hurt you. give me some credit

JJsbeachboy: im not perfect i tried to love im just not capable

JJsbeachboy: and your as broken as I

EarthGenre: . I died a second time in that hotel room when he walked out the door. I weeped....probably scared D.R. on the phone. And all the while, there were my instincts tugging at the strings attached to my heart and mind yelling, "Don't do it."

JJsbeachboy: i cant do thiis.. my kife ... im not strong enough any more your love wore me down...

JJsbeachboy: im jadded ... broken

JJsbeachboy: i cant keep feeling...

EarthGenre: I'm not jaded.... I'm very sad because I feel like I've failed. I'm very angry because I keep thinking, "what if I did this.... or this... or that..." and I can't stop thinking.

JJsbeachboy: maybe we are meant for each other.. maybe we are not i dont ... i cant trust my heart any more i have to close this chapter

JJsbeachboy: your killing me

EarthGenre: ((crying))

JJsbeachboy: i want to come home>>>>>

EarthGenre: I want the same thing