Lying here stretched open

A few days of thoughts accumulating. Mostly me trampling on myself. I'm many things inside and only one thing is looking to be fed.

Monday I was reminded of the "Let It Dry" story. Paul and AJ were over to watch movies with Art and since it was my Friday Night I stayed home and joined them for "Runaway Jury." Paul was talking about his roommate and how they have a bunk bed where the bottom bed is a fold up futon couch. This took me back to the bed I had when I moved to Upland. Time warp. It's 1994 and I'm in my room. Stace and Tom House had spent the night, Randy Avery and I were boyfriends at the time. We thought the other two were asleep and proceeded to mess around. There was nothing to clean up with afterwards and I whispered, "Just let it dry." Later that day, we were at lunch at Don Jose's and some water was spilled on the table. Tom & Stace look at each other and then at us and said, "Just let it dry." Good laughs.

Tonight Paul & AJ came over. Phil and I had spent the day hanging out. Art came home and we all watched, "Pieces of April." I laughed several times, but I also found myself emotionally drawn in by the family dynamics and the good will that neighbors will afford one another. The end sequence was "shot" in a way that evoked tears.

My alarm will go off in 8hrs. I remember, just now, that I won't be on the phones at work and will actually be doing floor support training. A piece of me is relieved for the change.

Eddy had his surgery and is layed up in bed for the next week. I joke about loving the time off of work, but the truth is that I'd probably hate it as much as he does not being able to move about and be free. He told me it was Tim's birthday today (Wednesday). Happy birthday, Tim. I wish I would've known. I should really be thanking him for helping me to put more of my own wants/needs into perspective. That's what I opened this entry thinking about... the one part of me that's just looking to be fed. It's just the real me. The part of me that flashes heat. My eyes felt dry from the air conditioner but I see now they've been moistened.