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AOL window open on one half of the screen.... this online journal in another. The phone rings....((Steve laughing))

A week of passing. A week of silence. **sigh** I'm an hour away from leaving work today and nothing to do. A slow transition from one desk, one department to this new one. I think I'll like it though.

Life back at home is a long way from where I want to be near friends in Orange County. I wish that I could fast forward to my birthday when most will be changed and settled with money. Tick tick tick... and watching the clock never helped to speed it up.

"When it rains it pours." That a saying that we grow up with and it can be used in simple weather terms. I've always seen dating--or getting to know--more than one boy at a time too complicated. I find myself feeling like too much of me is apportioned in one area and not enough in another. Believing what I do about intimate relationships, I know that at some point I must choose to be with one person. **sigh** So I guess that kind of takes the fun out of dating for me. Maybe this is another point to re-evaluate. **thinking**

Boys boys... met a really nice, seemingly smart, 20 year old at RAGE two weeks ago. According to Bobby I put on a porn show with him the last two Thursdays while dancing. I didn't think it was that bad...but upon reflection, I'm sure I would've told anyone else doing what I was engaging in to "Go and Get a Room!" +++wowsers+++

Enter in someone new...I like the intellectual capacity found as well as the physical match up. He's easy to talk to at length. However, there is a closet in this scenario and we all know how I feel about those. They're for clothing---clean or dirty, just stuff them in there. Again, I'm re-evaluating this, and looking at my reasoning. Perhaps I've missed out on some potentially wonderful people because of this. Dunno...

I went to Disneyland on Sunday with Nathan, Randy & Frederic. What a huge blast that was. The thought I wrote down at one point during the day was: "SPACE MOUNTAIN- A fast & Wacky ride. Round & Round...up & down. Spinning. And then sudden to stop. Flashes of light. All over. Like life... so enjoy every moment of it."

The day walking around the park was beautiful. I remember being there as a child. How much it has changed. Frederic & I remarked on how it would be in the next 50 years.

The boy returns from Vegas...but no call. I already knew that much, but it's never a feeling of pleasure to be confirmed in something that is negative.

Lorena will be out visiting soon. I'll get to see Delaney. Beautiful. I'm giddy about that. Tracy's b-day is approaching. The olympics. Classical music. on and on and on... but only so many thoughts can make it out today.

so bye

j.r.me