Over a decade ago I began to feel the social prejudice from friends when attempting to modify the direction of my own life and defining what "success" meant to me. I never thought that it would be something I would lose friends over. Was I naive? Does this thing Mr. Gage sees in me as a light of hope blind me to everyday obvious actions? Or is it that I have maintained a level of purity to the component of friendship that others lose as they continue to keep their minds closed and not open? I've been there too. (So I am tolerant more than I would have been, but the knowledge does not overt the immediate sting of ......betrayal?)
I guess there was no need for a question mark at the end of that last word. It is the word that came to mind so quickly and the word that I feel. So when does one lose objectivity and believe what others believe as truth? And when does sticking to one's beliefs prove to be the correct course of action because---though unpopular---it is still right(at least for me & in the grander sense, right for a specific individual) in the face of so much doubt. These questions... these uncertainties... these clouds that may never clear... To me, these are the realities of an open mind and heart because there is no doctrine that asserts that "YOU MUST" or "IT MUST BE."
I revert back to lyrics that resonate....
"How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?"
-misread, Kings Of Convenience
