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Now playing on Winamp: Mila Jovovich - In A Glade
i'm thinking this is like a brainstorm excep that I'm going to be far less coherent than when I spew thoughts all over to the next//senteneces///senese and connection most of the time, but connections get lost ...loss losss lsoslssosslsks... that makes me cry and frown because of the lost things...HEAVY BREATH..and then it's gone to the next thought... or to a silence that holds many......so much sleep this morning had dreams and sometimes I woke up to look at the clock and as I would think about reaching for the phone my eyes would shut again and I'm inside my mind. where is the time? where is the angel? where does the love stop long enough to feel good again? WHACK! ----------------Now playing on Winamp: Ben Harper - Waiting On An Angelsuch a fight, always fighting and hitting and kicking and screaming without a voice. SO LOUD..hear me screamingSCREAMING! why can't you hear me screaming? And why doestyping thatmake me cry.pause.----------------Now playing on Winamp: Esthero - Song for Holly I'm online and alone at home and singularly sainted. shoes everywhere.A bigger box in a bigger city and I'm drowning the same way I drown. In sounds waves of sound that are not the ocean but just as formidable. One of my favorite lines in any song in this song, "And if you won't let me go I'm just harder to hold." It's the truth of any love. And when a hold is the most simplistic thing to want.. >why? crash. crash smash smash trash...----------------Now playing on Winamp: Evanescence - My Immortal (Acoustic) asdf,k..my room looks trashed and i've only been here 24 days. HEad so heavy I want to go back to sleep. Washing my face doesn't wakie wakie. Medicine doesn't stop the swinging. Friends..friends...friends..
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Now playing on Winamp: The Bangles - Eternal Flame
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None of this comes out in words. None of this is shared. and here my eyes shut down.....shut down my fingers shut down... pull me baack.