I'm helpless to loving him

In this moment I feel completely alone.
I want to shut down.
I know that I cannot.
I feel so much love. For me. For him. From people.
SO MUCH LOVE.
In writing this, I hope to make everything better.
In seeing these words appear
I feel this anger fade away
I want to drink so that I can cry again
I want to laugh so I can cry again
I want to run so I can collapse
I want time
I want time

Because all this shit in the world doesn't matter
Only people do.