Tuesday, December 12, 2000

criss-cross

Irrepairable damage? I may have aided in the destruction of trust with Brian. I may not have. I look at this situation of ex-boyfriends crossing paths with me and think of the simple picture and the complex actions.

Simple requires that emotions not be looked at and that logic be applied. But this is harsh and reflects my ass of a side. How would I like it? I think to myself that had the situation been reversed and handled the same way that I would be intellectually okay with it and emotionally bruised, but not battered. Is this so? Am I so civil? I don't know. I would like to believe so....and so I must.

But believing this instills a sense that others can react the same way; maybe *should* act this way, but that is not for me to decide. So enter in complexity, feelings, friendships. The adult thing...lol. scoff.

j.r.me