wammo

What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? What do I want? (I think I'm thinking that if I repeat the question that the answer will come to me. It has.... I want everything.) It has always been this way. In choosing a career; in eating fast food; in the type of personalities I have as friends; and ultimately, in the person I wish to be dating. Since it is impossible to have all qualities in one person, I'm attracted to different people and live with the notion that no one will be "perfect" (as I am not perfect) and so someone that has a majority of the qualities is really good. Then monagamy sets in....

Another 20 year old dances into my life. **sigh** I'm enamored. I'm feeling bad. I was not constructed to date more than one person at a time. I think that my deep empathy with people reflects what I know the feelings that become involved for them as my honesty compels me to inform of my open dating situations. As always, I narrow down to one person to date seriously and this feeling bad subsides as I'm in the rapture of the birth of love.

"Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you; someone's gonna thank the stars above."

I gotta remember to trust instinct. Also...don't confuse instinct with lust.

j.r.me