I...

I cannot sleep. I even took Nyquil before laying down and I still woke up at 2:30am with that uneasy feeling I've been waking up to the last several nights. I got a text from James. I talked to him on the phone but that solved nothing. I hear Charlie in the shower. I hear the fan on my computer working too hard. I put music on to calm me. I find out my phone service is interrupted. I can't cry. I can't smile. I take deep breaths. I feel my heart ache, not figuratively, but a serious ache in the chest. I hear the wind gathering strength outside. I hear the rustling of the plant outside my window. I feel alone and abandoned. I hope that being with my friends tomorrow will help. I need it to help. It was hard for me to type that. "I Feel Possessed" by Crowded House starts playing. I want to go back to sleep. I will try again.