I'm listening to "Toca's Miracle" by Fragma. I remember being at a Huntington Beach house party that had a live DJ spinning years ago and dancing to this song in the living room. I found the carpet disagreeable with my shoes so I kicked them off and let my socks slide effortlessly.
This is one of those songs where the melody, sound effects and lyrics all work in perfect concert for me. There have been many different mixes of the tune since its release. I tend to like most of them. Some just make me stand up and move while others take me deeper inside of myself. The In Petto 2008 Remix that I just heard had me with my eyes closed for a time as I retraced the last eight years in my mind. There is a way that tears can start to form when my eyes are closed and in at a sudden spike of emotion---either from memory or sound or the synergy of the two---when the ducts push past the close lids and a stream will form underneath the tops & bottom eye lashes that have intertwined like the fingers of lovers being affectionate.
Umm...ok...so here are the lyrics:
Toca me
Esta tarde sirma, toca me
Hey...
Hey...
miracle miracle miracle
If you're gonna save the day
And you're hearing what I say
I feel your touch...
Your kiss...
Is not enough
And if you believe in me
Don't think my love is for free
I won't take nothing less than a deeper love
[Chorus: 2x]
Let me tell you...know...I
I need a miracle
I need a miracle
It's more than physical
What I need to feel from you.
[It's more than physical
What I need to get me through]
Tell me that you understand
And you'll take me as I am
You'll always be the one to give me everything
Just when I thought that no one cared
You're the answer to my prayers
You lift my spirits high
Come on and rescue me
CHORUS
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
My Note To The Govenor
(This was written in response to a MySpace bulletin posted by John E. that I have copied at the bottom)
When I was 18 years old in 1993 I went to my first gay pride parade and bought an infant jump suit that read, "My Two Daddies And Me" in the hope that someday in my lifetime I could get married and raise a family. That jump suit has hung in every closet of every place I have lived in the past 15 years.
I applaud our Supreme Court's decision of equality and for keeping that hope alive in me.
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John E.'s Bulletin:
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"To vote in support of the Supreme Court's decision on LGBT marriage call the Governator with this phone bank way to show your support:
1.
call 1-916-445-2841
2.
press 1, 5, 1, 1
(I verified the information myself.
-- JE)
Also write a quick e-mail, a short note is better, by going to http://gov. ca. gov/interact
Select "Supreme Court decision on Same Sex Marriage" from the drop down.
Click the "Pro" radio button at the top
And send a brief note.
There are several groups fighting to sustain the decision, just as there are well funded religious groups supporting a ballot initiative to change the CA constitution to include discrimination and ban same-sex marriage. In my opinion that is religious persecution. Judeo-Christian purity laws (which have all bout been abandoned) should not be used to dictate the state's laws. It's like passing a constitutional law that bans the consumption of pork.
To fight this discrimination you can donate to ACLU or HRC, but I don't have the links to donate specifically for this issue.
However, this PAC is doing just that: http://www. equalityforall. com/ scroll down to they hyperlink and contribute what you can.
Freedom. Equality. Love."
When I was 18 years old in 1993 I went to my first gay pride parade and bought an infant jump suit that read, "My Two Daddies And Me" in the hope that someday in my lifetime I could get married and raise a family. That jump suit has hung in every closet of every place I have lived in the past 15 years.
I applaud our Supreme Court's decision of equality and for keeping that hope alive in me.
=============
John E.'s Bulletin:
=============
"To vote in support of the Supreme Court's decision on LGBT marriage call the Governator with this phone bank way to show your support:
1.
call 1-916-445-2841
2.
press 1, 5, 1, 1
(I verified the information myself.
-- JE)
Also write a quick e-mail, a short note is better, by going to http://gov. ca. gov/interact
Select "Supreme Court decision on Same Sex Marriage" from the drop down.
Click the "Pro" radio button at the top
And send a brief note.
There are several groups fighting to sustain the decision, just as there are well funded religious groups supporting a ballot initiative to change the CA constitution to include discrimination and ban same-sex marriage. In my opinion that is religious persecution. Judeo-Christian purity laws (which have all bout been abandoned) should not be used to dictate the state's laws. It's like passing a constitutional law that bans the consumption of pork.
To fight this discrimination you can donate to ACLU or HRC, but I don't have the links to donate specifically for this issue.
However, this PAC is doing just that: http://www. equalityforall. com/ scroll down to they hyperlink and contribute what you can.
Freedom. Equality. Love."
Monday, May 26, 2008
E Memorius
Flashes of light.... that's a scene of a dance floor in any club across the world. Some grids are better than others. Some lighting operators are better than others. The trick is knowing the music, the technology and being able to anticipate with accurate timing to make the lights a seamless part of the music.
Let go.... of inhibitions, notions, rigid bodies, self images of how you look when you move. Allow the music to instruct your limbs on the next movement. Feel the vibrations creeping over your skin to find your sensitive spots and coil around them. As I've always told people, "If you can count to four, you can dance."
The weather has not been kind this weekend. It appears there will be no beach ceremony to both initiate the Summer season and even out my comedic Long Beach Pride Festival tan lines. I know that the beach isn't going anywhere, but I'm sure that I could use a recharge from the ocean mist right about now. The sand between my fingers and toes; watching the grains slip down into mounds and then be flattened by the smoothing power of the next wave.
"In the beginning he created a groove...
...can you feel it? can you feel it?"
PUSH - "Universal Nation"
Let go.... of inhibitions, notions, rigid bodies, self images of how you look when you move. Allow the music to instruct your limbs on the next movement. Feel the vibrations creeping over your skin to find your sensitive spots and coil around them. As I've always told people, "If you can count to four, you can dance."
The weather has not been kind this weekend. It appears there will be no beach ceremony to both initiate the Summer season and even out my comedic Long Beach Pride Festival tan lines. I know that the beach isn't going anywhere, but I'm sure that I could use a recharge from the ocean mist right about now. The sand between my fingers and toes; watching the grains slip down into mounds and then be flattened by the smoothing power of the next wave.
"In the beginning he created a groove...
...can you feel it? can you feel it?"
PUSH - "Universal Nation"
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Union Station Los Angeles
Why does poverty smell like urine? How am I unemployed for months and able to eat breakfast from the adjacent cafe without asking the strangers around me for change?
The world should smell jasmine.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
WHACK i tell you
I haven't been out of the apartment since Friday night when I saw Iron Man with Mark. Zapped by some fever for the past four days I think it's finally passed. Thanks to Charlie I have liquids beyond water and the Nyquil the past day or so that has let me sleep through the night without coughing to death. It is very easy to drift on seas when apathy is efficacious in the American veins these days.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
A Twinkle Left To Shine
Before I pass into sleep tonight....
I was out at Boy's Room with Mark. I told him while we were there that my only expectation of the evening was that I was going to get to spend time with him. It means a lot. There were pretty faces, hot bodies, head-turning ensembles that surrounded me. Flirty eyes---I notice these the most which is probably why I rarely make eye contact in these clubbing situation unless a purpose is served. I tried to smile.
And actually...the smile wasn't hard to come by. At one point while we were dancing to "Ray Of Light" I actually got chills and had the hairs on my arms stand up. It's been a while since that has happened. The right music, the right company, the right moment.....
I like when I'm like this.
Peaceful.
I was out at Boy's Room with Mark. I told him while we were there that my only expectation of the evening was that I was going to get to spend time with him. It means a lot. There were pretty faces, hot bodies, head-turning ensembles that surrounded me. Flirty eyes---I notice these the most which is probably why I rarely make eye contact in these clubbing situation unless a purpose is served. I tried to smile.
And actually...the smile wasn't hard to come by. At one point while we were dancing to "Ray Of Light" I actually got chills and had the hairs on my arms stand up. It's been a while since that has happened. The right music, the right company, the right moment.....
I like when I'm like this.
Peaceful.
