Winter Wonder Weekend

We're officially in the home stretch. This weekend of xmas has begun. The conversations with friends are about their last minute shopping. What will we be doing tomorrow night? Where are we traveling to on Sunday morning? I can already hear the questions on Tuesday at work about what we all did over the weekend. The common things are markers in communication that build information roadways and allow people to feel close. If they were to talk about nebulous ideas that cannot be related like a birthday or the weather, then the markers are much more transparent and the roads hard to traverse.

I want to wash my car today. It's been driven through a car wash maybe once or twice since I acquired it in July. All this week I have had the memory of what it's like to hand wash a car and I feel that satisfaction will not be achieved until I relive the motions of that memory.

I woke up feeling light today. Light to the point of almost dizzy. The spring up out of bed was more force than I had anticipated and I had to step forward in order not to stumble. I didn't drink enough last night for this to be the cause, but it could be the NyQuil and the 5htp. It's been over a year since I've used 5htp on any regular basis. I pre-loaded my fun with this amino acid and a hearty B-complex before going out last night. "Free is all you've got to be....dream dreams no one else can see. Sometimes, you want to run away. But you never know what might be coming around your way......"

I ended a comment on AJ's blog with: "Fear is a teacher whose lessons are best reviewed in dreams where hesitation can't kill you." His blog entry was pretty heavy. It put me in a heavy mood. I just took myself out of it by putting playing the TranceXstacy Genesis and Circuit Girl CD's. Now I'm bouncy again. I'm thinking of Randy and Nathan and dancing. "The longer it lasts and the better it gets."