Random Lines With Random Play

"All At Once"
Whitney Houston

Pudge pudge pudge pudge.... The fix is simple. Aerobic exercise. Most of the shit in life is simple like that. Don't have enough money? Spend less or make more. Or both. But we adapt very quickly. Comfort breeds boredom. Stop. Stop! Do Pygmies have these thoughts?

"Reach Up For The Sunrise" (Acoustic)
Duran Duran

That's the problem with this time of the year. It's hard to reach up for the sun because it's not out as much. Even getting out of work by 4:30, it's almost setting for the day. I wake up to a rhythm that is not my heart. I stand in the shower for what is an eternity for those who jump in & out. It is only a brief moment of Jeremy sanity where I am comfortable. My water web that never quite becomes a cocoon.

"Night Fight"
Tan Dun

The movie that this song is from reminds me of Lena's mom's monologue in the movie Joy Luck Club. Something to the effect that she is a tiger, waiting for that moment to break free. Yes, I can see the jumping from rooftop to rooftop. There are many images of flight and taking off to dreams.

"Sweetest Goodbye"
Maroon 5

Manscaping seemed so much more important when I was younger. Now, it's just one of those time consuming events that I don't do as often. I'm not sure if that means I've become more comfortable with myself or that I've just grown so despondent that it doesn't matter. Out of touch with my body? Haha. It's a different kind of awkward than pubescent blossoming. I know the power of my body and that most of it is in a potential state because being kinetic would mean that something healthy might be going on and I don't think my mind is wanting to lose the hold it has over struggling. It fights with itself. I fight with myself. Wow... I'm an IT...

"We Don't Need Another Hero"
Tina Turner

I'm IM-ing with Randy as I type this entry. He doesn't know this is what I'm doing. When this song came on, the title also reminded me of "Holding Out For A Hero" by Bonnie Tyler. Both songs have the power of these raspy women voices. Their sound signifies something of a hard life. It conveys struggle. You are drawn in close to their words because even a whispered lyric seems to have its own thrust of wind.

"Concerto Op.8 No.8 Allegro Non Molto - Allegro"
Vivaldi

Strings. I've never liked that a piano is considered a string instrument. I understand the reasoning, but strings sound so completely different. But what other instrument group would the piano belong to?

"Implantat"
2 Dollar Egg

I can honestly say I do not remember ever looking at the title of this song while it was playing in the background. It sounds different now that it has a title. I hear different things. This is much like knowing of someone but never having spoken to them. The song hasn't changed any. The person did not become different. My knowledge and perceptions grew. This song is dark. It enters into parts of the mind that are not easily unlocked; maybe just not shared in the open air.

December 1st my medical insurance kicks in. I know something is wrong inside, but I know not what. I'm tired all the time as if my body is constantly fighting something.

"Billie's Blues"
Billie Holiday

Well... that just says it all.

"Seven Cities [Solar Stone's Atlantis Mix]"
Solar Stone

And this is not dark trance. This is very ethereal, happy trance. This is the type of song that you float to ecstasy on. It is the kind of song that you hug on a rave dance floor to. I think I'll sit in the spa after Smallville tonight. This music has pushed an idea of relaxation. I was so wound up last night that I could not sleep. I had to start breathing deeply so that I became light headed. Sometimes that's the only way for me to get to sleep. Thoughts were entering my head about staying up all night and keeping myself busy, but that ultimately would have depleted my body of what energy I have left. I've been seeing Jorge lately. It's a good thing, but it mingles excitement and fear; two dinner guests at my bar stool for one.

"Touched By God"
Katcha

Another happy trance song. This one belongs to Nathan. It is a segue out of online mode for me tonight.