Imposition

Although I've had this cable modem installed now for almost two weeks, I suppose that playing online video games and exchanging e-mail has been more important than keeping my life updated in print. Tisk tisk...where is that writer's discipline that I so need? Verizon Wireless sent me an offer package last Thursday. Pending my drug screening something this week, I start on March 6th. Yeah! I'm working at Border's Books and loving that. (Even if I had to be there for a 7am meeting today) There's something about the whole "retail" experience that I'm enjoying. I think it's the face-to-face interaction with people. My "vibe" and senses are being honed, I can feel that. I almost feel as if there is some purpose for all of this. Jeremy, could you be any more vague? LOL I told Randy (my randy) about the idea I had for my most recent creative endeavor. Now stop talking about it Jeremy and write. Dancing has been high on the agenda this past week. My body is sore. Rest is in the prescription for recovery. Bobby & Joey, Randy & myself went and had HIV tests done at the WeHo Lounge last Tuesday and then had dinner at Marix. Unless you've experienced this, I can't even begin to describe how fun. Let's just briefly say that 4 kickass margarita pitchers later we were pretty lit. Asprin. My friend. Who's reading this? It's not really for me to think too much about. Forward focus on jobs...bills....then no bills, rent & back to school. j.r.me

Blink

I'm feeling withdrawn right now. We're (Randy, Nathan, Mark) at Randy & Frederic's right now. Nathan is on the main computer and I'm typing on Frederic's laptop. Randy, Randy & Mark are out on the balcony; the conversation as I heard it trail off was, "Are you a top or a bottom."

I don't want to be here. I want to be back at Gary's playing Star Trek: Armada on the internet. That, or I want to be playing Super Smash Brothers here. I'm not in the mood to be drunk, buzzerd, or light headed from the wine that others are drinking. My water is fine. But I'm definitely not in the same mindset as the others. Deep breath......release.

I wake up in the morning to be part of the work force again: my temp job. The people I'm temping for are so far behind in technology it reminds me of working for David Weldon. I'm basically sitting in this small office to take direction from people that have a very small total understanding of how to organize information into a usable database. I'm not supposed to be thinking. That's right....no thinking. Just be free from thought and do.

I think for the first time I've hit my moment where I want to be alone tonight and find that I'm in a relationship and have to explain myself. Communicate.