Riddle Me This...

I wake from sleep. Pfft, I should call it a nap seeing as I think I was only unconscious for some measurement past an hour. Strange, I do not feel groggy.

I have a sense of something being off--in the not right sense, not in the power sense. What I don't know is if it's something physical/physiological with my body, something cosmic that hasn't revealed itself yet, something obvious that I haven't opened my sight to or perhaps even---as honest as I try to be--something I know and just haven't done anything about yet. At least on this last point, I can take some time tomorrow, sit and make a list then complete the items. If I still have this feeling afterward then at least I have narrowed the possibilites.

On the Family Front, I am making steady progress. Today I have added the final sibling significant other. Including my mom's man, I am "virtually" connected where I can not be physically present. I have a letter to complete... I feel that being done by this weekend. I didn't realize I had so much to say.

The start of some old habits are coming back. The good habits. The good people will hopefully fall in line.

Song on Rand(y)om

With over 9000 songs files to select from on "random" play... Choosing to believe in connections I've made is no less odd than people believing in all-knowing beings. LoL.

December 22, 2011 after talking to Randy's mom:

"Home"
"As The Rush Comes"
"The Sound Of Missing You"
"Listen To Your Heart"
"I Would Do Anything For Love"
"Who's That Chick"
"I Know The Truth"
"Stand Up"

January 06, 2012:
"Stand Back" by Stevie Nicks
"I Hope You Dance" by Leanne Womack
"Angel" by Eurhythmics (Annie Lennox)
"Wind Beneath My Wings" by Bette Midler

Happy Birthday Cardwell...

Saving My Santa

It's early morn on Xmas,
And *ALL* in "this" house,
Are lying safely in bed
Since Angel caught the mouse.
I found the laughter--
That had been missing so much--
In the memories of you,
And the lives that you touched.
But now "young" friend
I must put lay down to rest,
Knowing you're here always,
In EVERY beat of my chest.

Holy Whole Holes, Batman!

Trust me. It's not coincidence that the same people who ask me, "If you know so much about relationships why are you single?" are the same people jumping from one bad one to the next.

I'm single because I know the value of real love...because I don't have to poke a hole repeatedly to metaphorically fill a hole & make me whole, haha...

Breadwinning

We have so many metaphors to say the same thing: "At the end of the day..." "The bottom line..." " When all is said & done..." ...the truth still remains: we are a world of infant souls while we still allow human beings to suffer with lack of food, shelter & knowledge. Whatever your belief system, political leaning or personal experience, until you understand this and the concept of "the good of the many," you're just a child playing with your toys that will eventually break.

Drunk Catholic Priest Recites

Let us pray:

"Gloryholes I've gone
in the HIGHEST.
Giving a piece through
Peepholes on earth
To all that is seen & unseen..."

Uh...What?
Why r u looking at me like that?
Did I get a word wrong?

Gone with the Drone Bone

Endless.
Droning.
Beats...

No soul. No meaning. No feeling to attach to the sound but emptiness. It matches the space between the bodies tonight. It matches the companions not by my side. And the sound builds with more... But the more is pathetically less.... And less... And eventually not much more than vibrating percussion repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating...repeating.........

(Visually, this only fractionally begins to explain the vacuous void)

MemoryMembers

Passing by Chaffey High School my body tingles with the memory of filming our AP Government project on the auditorium steps as if it was the US Congressional steps...

Bonita Buzzlucci
Kim as Gerald Ford

...I'm smiling on the bus knowing this was 20yrs ago. "Heaven" by Warrant starts playing on my phone and I'm swept up in time. It happens that easily when there are triggers for us to recall. I love when this happens. Science will find the gap from this phenomenon to the holes of dementia. But when we do... Will we still have selective memory?

Hooray & Boo

Yea, as historic as her speech was, I'm sorry, but it's hard to believe you when you say that LGBT are born with "Human Rights" when you yourself Ms. Secretary and our own President do not endorse gay marriage...didn't during your presidential race... And didn't get my vote. So, don't go telling the world what they should be believing until you put your own money where your mouth is.

I'll vote for any candidate who will openly, unabashedly, state in their platform that they are for gay marriage. Not separate but equal civil unions or the like... Plain and simple marriage. Anything short of that is not addressing me as an equal today and I won't vote for your weakness.