Sentient Sadness

Ralphie B - Ragnarok (Lounge Mix) I come to this writing thing because it used to do something for me. As the years pass and I attempt to make words join together, there is less and less that comes out that makes me feel better or seems coherent. (Right here I have already paused and don't know what more to type) I am away from people. They are away from me. However it's stated, the distance is hurting me. In a constant state of pain it does become normal and the question from others that is more conversational than caring, "How are you?" seems to have no way of being spoken without an awkwardness that leaves them uncomfortable or speachless. I understand now why people put on weight when they get older and are unhappy. Because even doing the simple things that you know can make things better are left undone. There was a time when I believed that the strength came from within, but now I know that we all derive that strength from within from something in our lives that causes it to be sustained. It is different for everyone and for me it has mostly been the people I've allowed to be very close to me. People pass with time. So does that strength.