CAstles IN The Sky

"Oh tell me why, do we build castles in the sky?"...
-Ian Van Dahl
ACE

Some would say that these are our dreams; something for us to strive for...others would say it's easier to set our focus on these lofty ideals that are out of reach rather than the tangible realities we don't wish to deal with at our feet. I say yes to both...but when is which?

Strangers On Blue

If this was New York, these giddy glances back and forth would be tedious and a waste of time. One of us would have already either yelled "Hey" from our seats at one another or actually walked over to the other....

Alas, this is the world geography where "The Happiest Place On Earth" exists...where you look down to see the stars amid sparkling pavement...there is an Orange Curtain...and so many other Fabulous Fabricated Fascades!

That all being true... I said hello & stayed on the train past my stop to talk with him. And even if nothing comes of it... I am feeling myself again.

"Lonely" by Ian Van Dahl

I've kinda always wanted to be in bed with a boyfriend in the rain to this song.

"Lonely" by Ian Van Dahl

How about being lonely.
Gonna give my soul to you.
Like thousand lights shining on my skin.
Can you feel inside of me?
My heart beating
Lonely sound

[Chorus:]
It touches my skin
It touches my soul
Do you really understand me?
I touches my skin
It touches my soul
Do you feel the same why I do?

The atmosphere is mighty
Colours of hope are lightening me.
Seduce my mind
Lift me up real high
Something sweet I can't resist
All these questions bring me down.

[Chorus 2x]

Do you feel the same why I do?

Promise Me Maybes

Though my words often sound definitive, I've just learned to speak with authority over time. I do it much less than when I was younger, but I still catch myself now & again speaking before I know enough to be saying what comes out of my mouth. This is true of conversation topics where there are facts that could be widely known and I personally have not endeavored to study up.

But when it comes to matters of the heart... And I know someone well enough... And I've been witness to their actions... Facts or not, all observations process in some part of my brain that can read & interpret their emotional world. (Allegedly... I mean, I'm only as accurate as the honest, concurring feedback I get from what I say.)

No "expert" in the field of "SLY"chology, but an expert of time & experience just the same. I used to be young and think that wisdom came with time & experience. I now know that not to be the case with everyone. There are slow learners at every stage & in each pace of life. (Some are spinning their wheels in the same spot from birth to death and some not much further.)

I'm not sure if I have too many expectations still---after simplifying my life---or if drifting back into the world of academia & old friendships I am letting the expectations of others crowd my thoughts again.

This is something in the back of my mind for the present and near future.

Three Drives - Letting You Go (Greece 2000) (Dabruck & Klein Remix) Offi...

The Way That Truth Times

There's a very distinct vibe we put off when experiencing "The Third Wheel Syndrome." Most of the time, one can avoid the situation if the people and/or situation is assessed. However, sometimes it happens among a trio of friends when two begin to let their inner feelings show---or previously unreleased publicly.

It's by no fault of anyone.... It's just how some stories are told & unfold. At least the music is good as I'm sitting in the upstairs heat on a leather couch with my own body heat being reflected back at myself... I haven't even danced yet and my tank top is drenched.

This week has been very hard for me and while I think some people intellectually get it... I don't think anyone knows what they can do to help. I've been grateful to those who have simply known to be around me; communicate... Attempted something.

Now... I dance...