Pieces of Me

This car accident thing happend on Tuesday. What a way to spend your day off of work. All I wanted was the laundry to be done so that I could walk--unobstructed--to the bathroom. The carpet in the bedroom is so clean because it's had a protective layer of clothing for most of the many months we've lived here.****How do the dots of fate connect? Tuesday I was supposed to be working. Kristi & Jonathan got married because they met through DanceSafe. Would their paths have crossed had the chapter not been? I don't know the answers to these ponderings, but I do know that I'm driving a Dodge Neon instead of my Integra. Hmph!****Six months before time starts falling off my record at work. :::sigh:::****Haircut time****Tomorrow I'm looking forward to an afternoon at Art's condo laying video games and relaxing. My first Saturday off in a string.****Before the accident, I was listening to Jewel's "Pieces of You" album. I had never listened to it before and some of the songs were quite sad. One was about a couple growing old together, their love, their bond. I realized that besides my grandmother, I've never had to deal with the loss of another person. I've never had anyone that close to me before. I thought of Randy and instantly I was in tears. It was a cry that I hadn't had in a long while and needed. I felt better afterward and was in high spirits when the accident occurred. The other party's lack of acceptance of liability is disheartening. It's the darkening of the outline to a picture I don't like seeing.****I was just placed on hold while helping a rep and the hold music was from CUSCO. I recognized it immediately from one of their albums that I own. (Or used to) I was evening-dreaming of how I'm impatient and how that works in my realtionship with Randy; how that will work in the future. Going places, wanting to experience new things like travel, shows, driving with the top down and I don't have a top to put down.****Old man in my head. When does he stop fishing?****I think my veins are coming more to the surface of my skin. Maybe my skin is just not as dark anymore.****yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn... but not when I get home. Then I'm awake. My brain becomes mush and maybe it's because I prayed so hard for it when I was younger.****2hrs more of working.