Tuesday, January 30, 2001

pee wee

Kinko's again. LOL. I've left corporate America to be drawn back to it for my petty little poisons. =)

I'm catching up with the cyber world and waiting for mark to arrive from his temp job so we can hang out and eat before one of my final treks to Chino.

Tonight will be the last night that Randy & I get to spend together...as in sleeping and waking with each other in the comfort that we have grown accustom to. I'm saddened....but looking toward the future what I can live on my own again and share the same intimacy that we've cultured in the last couple of months. With both of us moving in with our family, I think our creative sides will either flourish or make fools of us. he he he

Ahh....Mark has arrived.....so I'll end to eat.

love...j.r.me

Wednesday, January 10, 2001

critical

I'm sitting at a Kinko's in Placentia because I don't have ready-access to any computer anywhere else. $12.00 per hour. I think they've made at least that off of me already just from checking my various e-mail accounts for different organizations.

Putnam Investments received my 401(k) payment request and is in the process of getting me the thousand or so dollars that will allow me to live for the next few weeks. Searching for a job right now is feeling part stressful and part not. There is a large piece of me that is looking for those "responsible" type jobs in the classifieds, but another part of me knows that anything to pay bills is acceptable at this point. I put myself in this jobless situation for a reason...sink or swim; and I've always risen to the occasion.

Randy and I are inseparable. Good or bad? Umm..yeah. I enjoy it so much, but the next month is going to shift from the daily convenience of our previous month. Both of us moving toward the homefront, the outlook is bleak as to where we will be spending the nights with each other. (sigh) I'm processing these thoughts every moment of every day while registering for school, watching my bank account dwindle without replenishment and wondering how I will pay for my next meal.

DanceSafe.... I may resign from my elected position. I just am not giving as much to it currently as I believe a Board Member should. I'm probably still putting in as much effort as other members....but that lowers my committment, and I had always hoped that theirs would be more involved. The chapter will not move anywhere in a short amount of time without those committments.

j.r.me....w/out a computer and not knowing when I'll be signing another thought.